Homecoming Concert

Aside from this Homecoming concert, the ACGC will be having another one at the Gesu on Oct 1, Sunday, 10am. It's free and especially for the Ateneo community.

todo:

ay, ang galing. ang "to do" ay pwede maging "todo" kasi "todo na ito: week 15/18 na!"
ay, ang labo mo jaymee. ito na nga ang listahan:

tonight Sept28 (Thursday):
- Poverty Situationer part for theo paper (+ biblio)
- Powerpoint for EIA report
- at least 1/2 of ES175 homework
- contact interviewee for DS102
- giveaways for ES175 report

Friday, Sept29:
- compile theo
- questions for DS102 interview
- finish ES175 homework
- ES175 report
- read Clean Air Act
- research EMB
- ACGC Concert! (boo, di naman ako makakapunta..)

Saturday, Sept30
- DS102 meeting
- start ES175 paper
- Hope for the Flowers 3p (with ANI people and Kuya Jek)
- revise DS112 part of paper
- email interviewee

Sunday, Oct1
- Mass 7a
- ACGC Concert @ Gesu 10a (ito, baka maaari pa akong pumunta)
- finish DS112 part
- ES175 paper
- DS102

Monday, Oct2
- last IC for my RDL. :(
- DS102
- submission of Theo final paper

ito muna. baka maubos ang space kapag nilagay ko lahat.

kaya ito diba?

Free Hugs

ang ganda nito, natuwa ako sobra..

Maging Akin Muli

- Arnel Aquino, sj

Manlaming man sa Akin
puso kong maramdamin,
Lisanin man ng tuwa puso mong namamanglaw,
Manginig man sa takot masindakin mong puso,
Mag-ulap man sa lungkot
diwa mong mapag-imbot.

Kapiling mo Akong laging naghihintay
sa tanging tawag mo.
Pag-ibig Kong ito isang pananabik sa puso Ko.
Sa'yong pagbabalik sa piling Kong puspos ng pagsuyo.
Manahimik at makinig ka't maging Akin muli.

Di mo rin akalain tinig mo'y hanap Ko rin,
Ang 'yong tuwa at sakit Aking galak at pait.
Kung lingid pa sa iyo Aking pakikiloob,
Tuklasin mong totoo tunay mong pagkatao.

ayan

mayroon na ulit akong net. thanks to kuya for buying a new lan card, and to my perseverance for fixing the entire thing.

pero mamayang gabi na ako mag-eemail and stuff because i have to run to school now. it's 841h, and i'm still here. i have to get to F-AVR by 930h just in time for ivory's play.

sige.



i need a hug and a bonding session badly.

When She Loved Me

- Sarah McLachlan
(from Toy Story 2)

When somebody loved me,
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart
And when she was sad,
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy,
So was I
When she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
We had each other, that was all
Just she and I together,
Like it was meant to be

And when she was lonely,
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me

So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she'd say I will always love you

Lonely and forgotten,
I'd never thought she'd look my way
And she smiled at me and held me just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart

When she loved me

net

sira ang net ko sa house kasi nasira ko. haha

yun lang.
di na rin ako magtatagal dito, nakikigamit lamang ako ng computer ni kuya mark.
nandito lang ako kasi katatapos lang ng Bus Stop ng Katipunan Ext. maski na may orals ako for theo on Saturday, pinili kong mag-bus stop kasi naman noh, kailangan ko ng direction sa buhay. nase-stress na ako sa kakaaral. boo. as in. :(

hay oh well. paano na kaya bukas? i want to type my "orals" na kasi, as in every word that i am going to say. hindi gumagana yung outline sa akin. haha. sana ma-type in ko nalang diba? pero wala eh, sa yellow paper nalang. hmm. i'll ask my friend if she can lend me her laptop tomorrow. whole day naman nasa matteo lang ako.

yun lang. sige, have class pa.

:)

had a great day today. i'm too happy to even write proper sentences, so i'll just write bullet points:

- arrived at school ~0730am NO TRAFFIC.
- put band aid on my two pointers. haha. wawa.
- showed kuya mark that i know how to pluck ama namin and song of ruth already. ate rina's "wow, marunong na siya!" :)
- i was the only participant for the SIGNS workshop on the Mass for the morning session. :) special!
- had a very great Mass. "You have to TRUST God." hay. tears came.
- played the flute. planning to practice more and make a song arrangement with kuya mark for his special project. :)
- hung out with kuya mark, ate nancy, and ate rina while waiting for our lunch delivery.
- ate nancy's chips.
- usapang laptop, encoder, pag-summarize, maglinis ng bahay (?!) hahaha. at iba pang raket.
- bro. chris and his funny comments and smiles :b
- hay naku! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. di talaga ako tinigilan.
- somebody's sleepy, and it's not me! (and hindi na nga sleepy, dahil natulog na talaga)
- took pictures with kuya mark's camera. favorite subject: ate rina. haha. :b
- after 100 years, lunch came.
- ate rina treated me lunch :) one-piece chicken (haha, hindi two-piece? LOL) + kuya mark's pizza treat.
- rastie's comments, rachelle's cough syrup, chris's tagong smiles, chico's empanadas. :) i love SIGNS.
- eliazo open house. invited by myra. aww. that was really so sweet of her.
- "follow the yellow brick road" with vinia.
- rushed to gonzaga for ron's play :)
- "uhm, hi, i'm a guest of ron?" tapos nakasulat sa papel sa front desk ang "jasmine / jaymee duran"
- ang galing ng "sTArting 5: iba 'to!". syempre suportahan ang blockmate / kapwa SIGN. :)
- text text text text :) hahahahahahahahhahahaha.
- ate rina dropped me off at the u-turn slot under near mini stop, and found out that it was out of the way! wow! that's love.
- "i don't have my keys" therefore i have to wait for everyone.
- hung out at jollibee acacia lane
- had a haircut
- found out that my keys were in my bag all along. ("iba na talaga ang distracted")
- IM with Ivory :)


that's all. got to go back now to my theo. :)
hahahahaha. yun lang. hanggang taenga ang ngiti ko. feeling ko nawiweirdohan na lahat ng taong nakasalubong sa akin today. haha. :b

SALAMAT! :)

-

hay, na-stress naman ako.
alam ko ako ang nagreresist, pero ayoko talaga makinig MUNA.
marahil one of these days magigising ako at bingi na ako dahil patuloy kong sinasara ang taenga at puso ko.

isang araw mangyayari yun. mawawalan na lamang ako ng aking mga senses dahil patuloy kong sinasara ang lahat ng bagay, at nililimita ang sarili ko sa mga bagay na pwede pang mangyari. ito ay dahil pinangungunahan ako ng takot sa kung ano man ang pwedeng mangyari kapag pinakinggan ko na ang iyong masasabi.


bahala na nga. ang hirap naman.




mtutulog na lamang ako, at mag-iisip kung anong raket ang gagawin ko para magkaroon ng laptop. haha, nawiwindang na kasi ako sa dami ng kailangan gawin. paguwi ko ng bahay pagod na ako, at nagdedestress na lamang dahil talagang sabaw na. sa blog nalang ako natutuwa eh. sabi ni Mel yung Compaq daw mga P30k or less. haha. ewan. in my dreams.

social capital

noong nasira ang car namin, nagamit ko ang social capital ko. hehe. go Sir Leland's lectures!

i meant, noong nasira ang car namin, sinabay ako ng mga friends ko to go to school. si TJ every T-Th, at si Chico noong Volunteers' OrSem. as in sinusundo nila ako sa bahay ko. :)

tapos ngayun-ngayon lamang, ang sweet, tinext ako ni TJ to ask if he'll fetch me. :) we're planning na nga if makikisabay na lamang ako sa kanya for the entire school year, paano, pareho kaming may 730am classes! go philo.

pero hindi muna ako sasabay sa kanya bukas, dahil naglalambing ang tatay ko, so hahayaan ko siyang ihatid ako papuntang school. :)

sige, night.

taxi

hay! ang gastos.

last week, thrice ako nag-taxi. hindi rin naman kasi maiwasan kasi either late na or malakas ang ulan. tapos today nag-taxi na naman ako, kasi 11 na kami natapos sa theo outline. kasi naman eh. ako pa pinakamalayo ang bahay. di ba pwedeng overnight na lamang yan? para hindi ko na kailangan umuwi? ang hassle kaya umuwi ng ganon ka-late.

hay. oh well. the things you do for education.

now i must sleep, because it's 1234am.

You Are Near

- Dan Schutte
(Based on Psalm 139)

Yahweh, I know you are near,
standing always at my side.
You guard me from the foe,
and you lead me in ways everlasting.

Lord, you have searched my heart
and you know when I sit and when I stand.
Your hand is upon me protecting me from death,
keeping me from harm.

Where can I run from your love?
If I climb to the heavens you are there.
If I fly to the sunrise or sail beyond the sea,
still I'd find you there.

You know my heart and it's ways,
you formed me before I was born
In the secret of darkness
before I saw the sun in my mother's womb.

Marvelous to me are your works;
how profound are your thoughts, my Lord.
Even if I could count them, they number as the stars,
you would still be there.

thesis statements

oh yes, i'll try to take the ORAL EXAMS for the second long test for theo. but i have to get at LEAST a grade of 2, lest i'll have to repeat th121. oh well. here are the thesis statements. sino may reviewers diyan? turuan niyo naman ako. :)

5. From the point of view of the structure of the sacrament, the marriage is a human reality [Gen 1-2] which constitutes the matter assumed and elevated into the economy of salvation by virtue of the baptism of the parties. This human reality is distinguished by personal and faithful love as well as fidelity in love – characteristics which eminently qualify it to be a sign of sacred realities.

6. The indissolubility of marriage, that is to say the fidelity of spouses to one another, is a value directed to the fundamental and ultimate value that is the human person. It was affirmed by Jesus to be the original intention of the creator [Mk 10, 1-9]. It is this characteristic which conspicuously endows marriage with the potential to be the language to image (sic) God’s unconditional fidelity to his people [Hos 1-3]. Paul understands this to be the task and responsibility of the Christian spouses so they can be a faithful witness to this same unconditional fidelity of God [Eph 5].

7. A proper understanding of the sacraments, and therefore of marriage, must include the following aspects: [a] sacraments are essentially acts of the Church towards the accomplishment of the mission entrusted to it by Christ; [b] they are signs revelatory of divine realities; [c] they are moments of grace, man’s way to fullness of life with God.

8. Gaudium et spes renews the understanding of marriage by collocating it under the paradigm of consortium totius vitae, thus broadening the restrictive model of contrast which sees marriage primarily as an exchange of rights. This renewed understanding makes it possible to see marriage as healing in which intimacy and sexual relation are a positive value (sic), and where they are collocated as belonging naturally and constitutively to the human matrix assumed and elevated into the economy of salvation.

9. Marital union is not only a contract but a covenant in grace and faith, a relationship freely chosen, founded on friendship, and actively nurtured through love and sacrifice. In its human aspects, marriage is a sign of God’s love and man’s engagement in God’s work in the world. The active faith of the couple is an essential prerequisite not only for the fruitfulness of the sacrament but also for its very validity.

listening

for the ANI Volunteers' OrSem held today, i crammed a prayer video using windows movie maker last night, well actually, at around one in the morning til 2. it was my first time to do something like that, since the first time i tried using the movie maker, nothing really happened. but i guess when God wants to say something, He really pushes himself to be felt and heard...

i used Pilgrim's Theme since it was about having a mission, and things like that. i used the version of Hangad in their Acapella! album (thanks for recommending it, kuya mark). the prayer was just made up of pictures that i took here and there. in the process of making this i actually had a chance to stop and pray.

eversince, i've had a problem with my discipline in having a daily prayer time. i remember in freshman year how charlene (of CYA) always asked "O, kamusta ang prayer time mo?" then i would change the topic and say "Ok naman, nakapagsimba ako." but prayer time is different from going to Mass. an individual's prayer time is his own. it is the intimate time between him and his God. well, until now i still haven't fixed that. yes, i know i am currently undergoing Retreat in Daily Life, though for the past weeks i really had (and still am having) a hard time praying the daily prayer points. i would just pray for once or twice every week. my guide forgave me for that since whenever we met, i would be filled to the brim with my experience with my God, and he would also be moved that he would say that i am ready for the next unit.

but then, come unit four, i really haven't prayed even once. well, i tried, but just couldn't. unit four has been with me for two weeks now, but i think it would still be with me for another week because for the entire week i haven't prayed. why? because the theme for unit four is: "God Draws Me Into a Relationdhip of Love"

i'm scared of the theme. i'm scared because He might say something that i really wouldn't want to hear. eversince that Contemplation exercise during the SIGNS prayer workshop, i've been scared of listening because little by little there has been some concreteness in what He's saying.

i'm scared because i know i have to deal with a lot of things. i have to fix a lot of things. these two stanzas say everything that i feel:

Each must go his way. But how can I decide?
Which road I should take; who will be my guide?
I need some kind of star to lead me somewhere far.
To find a higher dream in the greater scheme of things.

The road before me bends; I don’t know what I’ll find.
Will I meet a friend or ghosts I left behind?
Should I even be surprised that you’re with me in disguise
For it’s your hand I have seen in the greater scheme of things.

uncertainty and confrontation makes me feel so uncomfortable.

I know I should just trust in His Heart.
Just like what Sir Leland said in his reflection yesterday, there are some things that only the heart, and not the mind, can comprehend.

hay. Lord! ano po ba talaga? :(

happy birthday, guita!
i'm still compiling our gift for you. :)

miss you so much! ♥

--

naiinis ako.

matutulog nalang ako.
(peste, oo ala-singko).


sana okay ka lang, kasi ako hindi.

shux

ang hirap maging development worker.

kailangan kong matutong hindi masyadong ma-attach at magpa-affected sa mga bagay.. totoo naman kasing nakalulungkot ang poverty, inequality, injustice, etc. pero yun. masyado kasi akong naaapektuhan eh. nalulungkot ako. nadedepress ako sa realidad. lalo na kapag hindi na konsepto ang nakikita ko. lalo na kung nakikita ko na sa harap ko ang mga mali sa mundo. putik, ang hirap.

pero yun. sabi nga sa philo, hindi pwedeng primary reflection lamang. totoo nga, namumulat ang mga mata ko sa primary reflection. napaghihiwalay ko ang mga bagay sa primary reflection. nakikita ko ang katotohanan at nasasaktan ako. nakikita ko ang realidad at nararamdaman kong hindi mabuti ang mundo. pero hindi ako dapat malimita sa mga ito. kailangan kong tumungo sa secondary reflection. ano ang magagawa ko? kung ganito ang realidad, paano ako makagagawa ng pagbabago? hindi kinakailangan malaki, pero paano ako makakapagbahagi ng aking sarili para sa ikagaganda at ikabubuti ng madla? kapag naisip ko na ang mga ito, kinakailangan ko nang kumilos. hindi pwedeng napag-muni-munihan ko lamang ang mga ito. kailangan kong gumawa ng nararapat na aksyon. 'ika nga sa pastoral cycle process.

hay. sabi ko nga, ang hirap maging development worker. pero narito na ako. malapit na. konti nalang. kailangan magpatuloy. hindi pwede sumuko. masakit ang katotohanan, pero may magagawa tayo para malampasan ito.

"lagi mo lamang tatandaan na maraming nagmamahal sa'yo."
- ate tine


(alam ko marami na ring ibang nagsabi, katulad ni ate tish na palagi rin sinasabi yan..)

nananalangin...

nabigla ako nang malaman ko ang balita, pero marahil mabuti na nga rin iyon. sa wakas wala na ang paghihirap. sa wakas kasama mo na Siya, kung saan wala nang sakit, kung saan payapa na ang lahat..


you're a great guy, Nikki. i'm very thankful that i met you. i remember during freshman year how we always talked about how we could improve things. how we could imbue our schoolmates with the values that we believed in. i remember that you asked me to run for block rep. i remember our long talks about our frustrations and our dreams. you inspired me to strive hard. you inspired me to serve my community well. you inspired me to serve with humility, and with excellence.

idol kita, Nikki. hanga talaga ako sa iyo. lumaban ka hanggang sa huli.

i'll keep you always here in my heart.


let's pray for the soul of Nikki Castro, and also for everyone who loves him...

You are a Child of God

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate but that we are powerful beyond measure. Its our LIGHT not our darkness that frightens us the most. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children of God do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconciously give others the courage to do the same
- Mariane Williamson


galing kay Mel.

weh!

ang nanay ko, ilang buwan pa lamang sa Canada, sosyal na.
biruin ninyo, dati tsinelas lamang, ngayon "flip flops" na!

weh?

philo

maui just texted me right now..

i got a B!

yay. :) i love philo. i'll blog about my orals next time, doing volunteer formation work right now.

hacker

my blog got hacked, pero ito pa rin ang url ko.
basta, complicated ang ginawa ko.
for now, i'm testing if this will get hacked again.

sige, yun lang.