My One Desire

Last school year, my yearning to search for my one desire has been heightened because of RDL. I must admit, even if most of the time, while I was undergoing that program, I refused or avoided praying because of certain reasons (that I really don't want to share here), my desire for my God (and my desire to desire Him) grew strong.

For some reason, maybe because of the busy schedule and all, I noticed that for the past months I have not been that "enthusiastic" in searching for my one desire. I could not feel that "spiritual high" that helped me feel His love more.

I was reminded of that desire while watching the Hangad concert last Sunday. From the start of the concert I knew there was something I would get out of that show. (I truly appreciated that they sang one of my favorite songs, Hawak Kamay) I got my grace when they sang the second to the last song:

Hangad
Music and lyrics by: Paulo K Tirol

Kung aawit ako nang mag-isa,
Awit ko'y awitin nga ba?
Sabayan mo ako, Panginoon,
Sa aking pagkanta.

Hangad Kang maging tinig ko't hininga,
Hangad kong makita ang pagmamahal Mo.
Hangad Kang makasabay sa bawat pagkanta,
Hangad ko'y hangarin Kita.

Kahit minsa'y aking nalilimutan,
Ikaw, Poon, ay laging nariyan
Kaya't ngayon ang tanging hangad ko
Ay na Ikaw ay laging mapaglingkuran.

Hindi lang sa pag-awit,
Kundi habambuhay.
Panginoon, gawing apoy ang puso ko,
Hangaring umaalab para sa 'Yo.

Kung aawit ako nang mag-isa,
Ako'y umaawit nga ba?
Sabayan mo ako, Panginoon,
Sabayan Mo ako sa aking pagkanta.

Hangad Kang maging diwa ko't damdamin,
Hangad kong tularan ang pagmamahal Mo.
Hangad Kang makasama sa araw-araw,
Hangad ko'y hangarin Kita.

Panginoon, paalabin ang puso ko.
Hangad ko'y Ika'y maging tanging hangad ko.


Hangad. A lightbulb suddenly sparked in my head. Hangad is Desire.

What is my one desire? :)



Thank you, ate Ivory and ate Bea for being instruments in my remembering this.