changes

yes, as i said before, i am beginning to like the changes happening, but still, i am so confused.

for the first time, yesterday, i spoke to someone about my plans for next year. for the first time, i let it out verbally. it felt good, but at the same time, it saddened me becuase it means that i'm that serious about it.

kuya mark asked me why wait til next year? i told him, "wala akong choice eh" hay. ang pangit. if i feel that way, it's really bad. it's as if napipilitan nalang ako. but he then said that there will never be a time when we won't have a choice. so i reassessed my thoughts. ay, oo nga.

this is their last chance. this is my last chance.

who knows, things might change for the better and i might completely overhaul my plans. but, as of now, that's it.


i'm sorry if this entry is really vague. someday, you'll understand what i am saying. i don't think the people concerned would really understand me. i'll just let everything be.