Still the same

You may have to read this first, before reading my entry for today.


It's so tiring. It has been weeks since I've wanted to cry, but still tears haven't come. Even during our prayer this afternoon, I really felt I had to cry, but I only felt resistance. It was hard to breathe, and my hands were already shaking. But tears did not come. I just remained quiet for the rest of the period. I didn't sing, I didn't pray. I just stared at the candles. I just stared at His image. It was too much. I had to let it out, but nothing came.

PLEASE. I need catharsis. Somebody make me cry, please? :(

















Hello Taize. I'm still traumatized by you.

Christmas Cards

I'm so proud of myself. :)

I was able to make Christmas Cards for my friends and family. I just realized that it's been three years since I last made something for Christmas.



Now I'm really appreciating the things that have happened this year.

Owver!

Haha, wala lang, gusto ko lang ganoon ang title ng entry ko.


Hmm. Tapos na ang chapter sa life ko na may gusto ako sa iyo. Haha. Can't believe that that was also for five years. At iniyakan pa kita kagabi ha! :P Pero in fairness, ang bilis ko maka-get over. Wala pa atang twelve hours. :P

But don't worry, you're still my friend. You're still my best guy friend in the whole world. :)





Salamat! *bow*

Seasonal Depression

Oh, so it's Christmas?

Yes, I understand and appreciate the Liturgical significance of the Holiday. As a Catholic, it is a big celebration for us.

But this year, it just feels different.






Ate, miss na kita. :( Sana dito ka pag-Pasko, o kaya diyan ako. Basta, sana magkasama tayo :( Wag ka iiyak please pagbasa mo 'to! Lablab.

A Message from the Holy Father

“Today, as in the time of Jesus, Christmas is not a children’s story, but God’s answer to the human drama in search of real peace. ‘He himself will be peace!’ – says the prophet, referring to the Messiah. We must open wide our doors to welcome Him. Let us learn from Mary and Joseph: let us faithfully submit ourselves to God’s plan even if we do not fully understand it, let us trust in His wisdom and goodness. Let us seek above all else the kingdom of God and Providence will help us. Merry Christmas to you all”.








(emphasis from me)




Sakto.

Anong trip mo?

Alam mo, di kita ma-gets. Bakit kailangan mo pa gawin yun? Bakit ngayon pa? Kung kailan malapit na ang Pasko? Bakit? Di ko alam kung ano gusto mo mangyari, pero feeling ko talaga hindi fair eh. Bakit sa kanya pa? Kung sino pa yung hindi maayos, sa kanya mo pa gagawin?

Pwede bang ipaintindi mo sa akin?

Caritas in Veritate (Charity in Truth)

A word cloud done by the British Jesuit Initiatives, as an interpretation to Pope Benedict XVI's encyclical, Caritas in Veritate (Charity in Truth).





Taken from their site.

December

It's the first time I didn't make a wish list. Well, I actually did, but I never published it. It's just sitting on my desktop, and soon I'll just delete it. This year just feels different. Hmm. Paano ba i-explain?

I guess the first one is the Bel Field. Almost everybody I know anticipates the Christmas lights at Bel Field. I thought I did, too. But yesterday, when Tita A and I walked to Gesu, I just didn't feel the "magic" (eek, corny term) that the lights brought. Wala. Wala lang, the lights were just there. It was just a normal night in Ateneo. Nothing special. Nothing to get excited over. Nothing to feel all happy about. But I remember that once or twice before I felt that "special" feeling when I saw the lights. It brought a different kind of happiness, like maybe how a young child would feel when he sees a toy he really likes in a store. It's something that you want to keep, and to last forever with you. But now, it's gone. They were just plain trees with plain lights. It was such a dull feeling. I really could not understand why.

This year December just feels so dry. Let me clarify that I'm not unhappy/sad. It just feels dry--like it were a normal month with no special occasions/holidays happening.



Hmm. Bakit kaya? Ano kaya ang kailangan kong gawin?






Thinking.

Tired Na.

Okay, it's past 1AM. I'm still awake. I'm already tired. :(

I'm still doing Church duties. I have no more time to do it, so I'm doing it now. I'm not even halfway done, but at least I'm done with the template of the PowerPoint. I could just input the contents while I hang out in Ateneo later (Monday).

Just a list of things to do today--

- Sleep!
- Go to the bank, deposit salary, have passbook updated
- Call up CMO, ask if we could use prayer room
- 1130AM Mass with Kai, then session after
- Go to iCampus
- Insert Simbang Gabi PPT during free times
- Have posters printed
- Meet with Julia @ Starmall, 6PM
- Orient King for Simbang Gabi Masses



There! I'm just waiting for the poster. A new friend is fixing it :)

i love kuya mon :)

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Para Sa'yo

Nagsimula ang lahat sa biruan. Malay ko naman na isang araw ay may mararamdaman beyond sa pagbibiruan. Sana hindi nalang natin ginawa (ginagawa) ito, masakit eh. Sobrang sakit. Sa bawat pag-uusap, sa bawat pagkikita, sa bawat kunwaring paglabas. Tapos ngayon magkikita na naman tayo uli. Masasaktan na naman ako, kung pwede lang sana na hindi na tayo magkita, pero hindi maaari. Kailangan natin magkita eh. :(

Heto naman akong duwag, ni hindi ko masabi sa iyo ito.













Tama na :(

Balang Araw

Silvino Borres Jr., SJ - Manuel Francisco, SJ


Balang araw ang liwanag matatanaw ng bulag
Ang kagandahan ng umaga pagmamasdan sa tuwina

Balang araw mumutawi sa bibig ng mga pipi
Pasasalamat at papuri awit ng luwalhati

KORO:
Aleluya, aleluya
Narito na'ng Manunubos
Luwalhatiin ang Diyos!

Balang araw tatakbo ang pilay at ang lumpo
Magsasayaw sa kagalakan
Iindak sa katuwaan (KORO)